Make a whole new religion

these days have been an emotional calmness

my best friend tells me that he disapproves of what I am doing now..
and I'm grateful that he put it across so directly and clearly
it takes lots of effort to know me that way.. I'm grateful

but why calmness? This is because I needed to regulate my emotions in such a way that I store them away.. and think about it before I react..
according to him.. my reactions are too drastic..
well.. dude.. I know.. that's why I'm storing my reactions away..
that's why I dont want to react..

It's a bad calmness.. but this is how I deal with matters now..
My anger always has a third party effect..
I'm truly sorry.. but this is how it is..
Anger, I believe, is never directional.. it's an explosion..

to his concerns..
I'm grateful..
and I will be careful with regards to innocent parties

but I never admit that I am wrong now.. coz I think there's a reason for my displeasure

there are lots more I would love to say here.. but I'm sure if I did.. they will be misinterpreted soI think I'll keep them in

I'm grateful for this friend who bashes me for not reason.. because he saw me and scolded me from his heart.. somewhere in his twisted and pessimistic mind.. he truly knows what is concern

I'm grateful for my bean bag too... My punching bag
I truly believe.. after thinking bout it for a day.. that I've punched her so many times.. when I dont recall how..
i took you for granted
I'm grateful for you

I'm also grateful for a bloke
someone who I normally regard as silly.. someone so honest that is unworldly

I'm grateful coz these people cared for me in a selfless way

and I see it more clearly now..
years after the one I loved left me.. afterall.. I didnt love u so much..
u know it.. and I do too =/
years after best friends become strangers
years after years

faith? love?
talk is cheap.. and it can never buy me over like it used to


Push It by Garbage
I was angry when I met you
I think I'm angry still
We can try to talk it over
If you say you'll help me out

Don't worry baby (don't worry baby)
No need to fight
Don't worry baby (don't worry baby)
We'll be alright

This is the noise that keeps me awake
My head explodes and my body aches
Push it, make the beats go harder
Push it, make the beats go harder

I'm sorry that I hurt you
Please don't ask me why
I want to see you happy
I want to see you shine

Don't worry baby (don't worry baby)
Don't be uptight
Don't worry baby (don't worry baby)
We'll stay up all night

C'mon push it, you can do it
C'mon prove it, nothing to it
C'mon use it, let's get through it

C'mon push it, you can do it
Don't worry baby (don't worry baby)
Don't be uptight
Don't worry baby (don't worry baby)
We'll stay up all night

Don't worry baby
We'll be alright
Don't worry baby
We'll be alright
Push it
Push it
Push it
Push it
Push it

outta my cave~ there are times when I need to be away from this world for a while.. to think bout things.. to talk to myself..
I know I'm weird.. but that's how I deal with things

I've been thinking bout George a lot..
This George guy.. whom Hiro once mentioned..
The guy who Hiro spent so much time looking for when they parted..
The guy who Hiro kissed a lot..
I hate George..
Because he took the faith away from Hiro..
Because after him.. Hiro didn't really believe in faith or love anymore..
pretty much like me..
I would love to escape this loop..
but the faith is gone.. somewhere far away.. sometime long ago.. I gave it away.. and I guess it's never coming back me

but hey!
I'm fine :)
and I hope someone hates Hiro :p
just for my ego.. coz people normally dont like the person who loves us a lot.. :)

Shoot The Moon by Norah Jones

The summer days are gone too soon
You shoot the moon
And miss completely
And now you're left to face the gloom
The empty room that once smelled sweetly

Of all the flowers you plucked if only
You knew the reason
Why you had to each be lonely
Was it just the season?

Now the fall is here again
You can't begin to give in
It's all over
When the snows come rolling through
You're rolling too with some new lover

Will you think of times you've told me
That you knew the reason
Why we had to each be lonely
It was just the season