Tuesday, August 12, 2008
A Sorta Fairytale
Something clicked the other day for me.
And because of that, I started to listen to Tori Amos' 'Scarlet Walk' again.
I've never liked this album of hers (released in 2002). But when I was listening to "A Sorta Fairytale" on my ipod, I realised that this album was about spaces and voids.
And I started to appreciate this album a little bit more.
And as I listened to the lyrics
"and i knew then it would be a lifelong thing
but i didn't know that we,
we could break a silver lining"
I thought of someone.
And I wondered if anyone has this experience where they get to like something or someone, but still don't know at that moment that that thing or person will play a bigger part in the later part of life.
That year, I was 18 years old.
And I spent time with someone I really liked.
And when it finally ended, I realized that I was actually in love.
But Hiro and I were not a life long thing, neither did we plan to break a silver lining.
We are just each other's fantasy.
A tale that a strange will like a peculiar, and that the peculiar did like the strange back.
After the heartbreak, I dated.
Some later become friends. Some I've forgotten by now.
And when my heart eventually mend, the dating stops also.
Then years later.
On a day as normal as the day me listening to Tori.
Something clicked.
There was a photo exhibition and you invited me along.
(I didn't know until years later that you had actually considered not meeting me then)
I roughly know Mount Sophia but still I got lost.
But as if a secret force called on me, I turned and took a narrow row of steps.
And somehow I found your apartment.
I remember I was under the umbrella while you sat in the sun, and we drank a bottle of San Pellegrino.
Friends never do understand my insistence on loving someone faraway.
Maybe it's my gift.
But every time I think that our lifelong thing has come to an end,
I realize that we could break another silver lining.
Maybe this is the way how Life teaches this naive boy about love.
That love sometimes is also about the things that are not done or said.
And maybe after un-learning everything about the so-called love,
Here is his sorta fairytale.
Dvd version: Helps visualize the spaces and voids.
And because of that, I started to listen to Tori Amos' 'Scarlet Walk' again.
I've never liked this album of hers (released in 2002). But when I was listening to "A Sorta Fairytale" on my ipod, I realised that this album was about spaces and voids.
And I started to appreciate this album a little bit more.
And as I listened to the lyrics
"and i knew then it would be a lifelong thing
but i didn't know that we,
we could break a silver lining"
I thought of someone.
And I wondered if anyone has this experience where they get to like something or someone, but still don't know at that moment that that thing or person will play a bigger part in the later part of life.
That year, I was 18 years old.
And I spent time with someone I really liked.
And when it finally ended, I realized that I was actually in love.
But Hiro and I were not a life long thing, neither did we plan to break a silver lining.
We are just each other's fantasy.
A tale that a strange will like a peculiar, and that the peculiar did like the strange back.
After the heartbreak, I dated.
Some later become friends. Some I've forgotten by now.
And when my heart eventually mend, the dating stops also.
Then years later.
On a day as normal as the day me listening to Tori.
Something clicked.
There was a photo exhibition and you invited me along.
(I didn't know until years later that you had actually considered not meeting me then)
I roughly know Mount Sophia but still I got lost.
But as if a secret force called on me, I turned and took a narrow row of steps.
And somehow I found your apartment.
I remember I was under the umbrella while you sat in the sun, and we drank a bottle of San Pellegrino.
Friends never do understand my insistence on loving someone faraway.
Maybe it's my gift.
But every time I think that our lifelong thing has come to an end,
I realize that we could break another silver lining.
Maybe this is the way how Life teaches this naive boy about love.
That love sometimes is also about the things that are not done or said.
And maybe after un-learning everything about the so-called love,
Here is his sorta fairytale.
Dvd version: Helps visualize the spaces and voids.
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