Make a whole new religion

I had to wake at 6am this morning to go for work.. my gosh.. so tired
haha

then I had to be in the sun to conduct a silly tele-match
Today is PAP something something family day..

I was standing in the direct sun doing nothing.. quite bored.. plus the organising guy is quite very very F***ed up..

Then after that, I went to play human Snake and Ladder with the children.. screamed until I have no more voice..
but it's fun.. I like to interact with children.. they can be quite cute..

But it's sad to see how some parents teach their children..
After we throw the dice, I'll try to teach the child how to count and guide them slowly..
But some parents just drag their child to the next space and tells them, 'you stand here'

And there are some parents who are such sore losers.. the typical Singapore parent..
HEY HEY.. THAT BOY DO WHAT!?
So many times I had to step in front to say.. never mind la uncle.. they happy can liao.. don't angry k?
children more cute and fun..
FUCK YOU STUPID SINGAPORE PARENTS!
haha I'm not angry.. just wanna say that

if I ever will be a parent.. I'll take time to teach my child life.. the fun things :)

After Snake and Ladder I went to KPO at my friends stall.. they got so many prizes still! haha
so I told them to just give.. give everything! haha
miss also give :p

but there, I see worse things..
they are supposed to queue to try to throw a ball into a basket..
and knowing that we're giving prizes like mad people, everybody rushed to queue..
The adults had the cheek to jump a child's queue..
again I had to tell them.. let children play lah k?
Auntie.. let them play.. they play more fun :)

PUI!

haiz.. how?
We are still a long way from being civilised..

though I rarely get soft hearted on children, I had fun today
they are so cute..
:)

who is number one???
me...me..
haha.. such a cute smile.. :)

and I realised I called the children.. baby..

to throw the balls in the basket, we let them climb on top the table..
and I said.. careful baby..
and my fren made fun of me :p

haha
I'm tired now..
I'm a bag of old bones

Rock-a-bye baby on the tree top,
When the wind blows the cradle will rock,
When the bough breaks the cradle will fall,
Down will come baby,
Cradle and all


Wide Open Spaces
by Dixie Chicks

Who doesn't know what I'm talking about
Who's never left home who's never struck out
To find a dream and a life of their own
A place in the clouds, a foundation of stone

Many precede and many will follow
A young girl's dream no longer hollow
It takes the shape of a place out West
But what it holds for her, she hasn't yet guessed

She needs wide open spaces
Room to make her big mistakes
She needs new faces
She knows the high stakes

She traveled this road as a child
Wide-eyed and grinning she never tired
But now she won't be coming back with the rest
If these are life's lessons, she'll take the test

She needs wide open spaces
Room to make her big mistakes
She needs new faces
She knows the high stakes

As her folks drive away her dad yells, "Check the oil!"
Mom stares out the window and says
"I'm leaving my girl"
She says, "It didn't seem like that long ago
When she stood there and let her own folks know."

She needs wide open spaces
Room to make her big mistakes
She needs new faces
She knows the high stakes

Looking through my old stuffs and since my day was quite empty..
I'll share it here..

~
written by gage

I later found out..
I later found out that all my dreams and the things I wanna do is expensive
A car license requires money
A friendship is maintained through a SMS or a cup of coffee
I guess this is what they mean by dreams lost as we grow up
But I think we didn't lose them
it's just that we learn to substitute them with cheaper or more convenient things
We learn to tell ourselves that we're still happy without them
But are we?
I'm still trying to find out what I really need
What I can substitute
What I can do without

Will I still need you if you don't need me?



I wrote this song lyric for a couple.. they are friends of mine..
too bad it hasn't found a melody..

~SOMEHOW~
(female):
I said before
(that) I choose lonely
Why I don't want to hurt anymore
All love gave me
Was sand and grey clouds
I'd rather waltz on this road alone

(male):
You were crying
When I came along
I understand why you hurt so badly
How can I tell you that you are precious to me?
If I ever,
Will it matter at all?

Chorus:
What if you
Should leave one day
and make my world fall in pieces
I'm not sure if I can live till
to have spring come visit again

What if you
Hurt me one day
And take all tears away from my eyes
That's because
On that one day
in my heart
You left a ripple
in me somehow

In my heart, you left a ripple in me somehow


fyi.. This insecure couple are now happily ever after..
they are so mushy that you can die from over dosage of sweetness watching them
yuck!
hahaha

hmm.. I have so many thoughts today..
can't remember where to start

thought of someone a little too many times today..
First it was at the ATM.. me trying to top up my farecard..
that man in front was sooooooo slooooooooooooooow........
I always think bout hiro if I wait too long..

I learnt guitar today!
so fun.. but my fingers all twisted together..
I wanna learn it well.. then learn how to play Sunny Came Home..
Why?
don't know..
one of the things in life that you just gotta do or have...
:)
I wish I could be happier..

(lines from the movie, Facing Window)
after you.. red is no longer red
sky is no longer blue
trees are no longer green
after uou.. I'm trying to find the colours we used to have..

written by gage

I'm sitting on the rainbow
I'm sitting on a light
I'm sitting on a fence (and waiting)
Watching the time go by

No you didn't wait for my return
You didn't wait for me home
So I'm left here on the meadow field
I'm the scarecrow

I'm running there to find you
But I think I'm running late
So you will be tucked somewhere in a place
Where no one can relate
Somewhere in a maze
Where no one can replace

gage wonders:
After all that I have done for you. This is what I get?


Did I Shave My Legs For This?
by Deana Carter

Flowers and wine is what i thought i would find
When i came home from working tonight
Well now here i stand, over this frying pan
And you want a cold one again

I bought these new heels, did my nails
Had my hair done just right
I thought this new dress was a sure bet
For romance tonight
Well it's perfectly clear, between the tv and beer
I won't get so much as a kiss
As i head for the door i turn around to be sure
Did i shave my legs for this?

Now when we first met you promised you'd get
A house on a hill with a pool
Well this trailer stays wet and were swimmin' in debt
And you want me to go back to school

I bought these new heels, did my nails
Had my hair done just right
I thought this new dress was a sure bet
For romance tonight
Well it's perfectly clear, between the tv and beer
I won't get so much as a kiss
As i head for the door i turn around to be sure
Did i shave my legs for this?
Darlin did i shave my legs for this?

what you see, may not be true
what I hear, may not be what you think
what I think, I may not say
what you say, may not be sincere
what you feel, may be more accurate than what I say
what I touch, will not turn into gold
what you touch, may not be wat you think
what I feel, you cannot feel
what I say, I say it softly
what you think, I may not agree
what you hear, can be the most beautiful song in the world
what I see, may not be wat you're feeling
what is the truth to you?
what is the truth to me?

from the movie, The Hours

I remember one morning...
getting up at dawn...
There was such a sense of possibility...
You know?
that feeling?
And I remember thinking to myself...
So, this is the beginning of happiness.
This is where it starts.
And of course there will always be more...
(laughs)
Never occured to me...
It wasn't the beginning...
It was..
happiness...
It was the moment...
Right there....

Sentosa!
haha
Today's sun was great.. but I didn't get to tan much..our china friends came with us.. so we went underwater world and dolphin lagoon with them..
I wonder who will not like to stay on the sands.. and wanna go see artificial habitats..

But anyway, had fun being the tour guide for them.. then brought them to chinatown to eat.. today was fun :)
I wanna get fit again.. and tan too :)
Like many yrs ago.. :) hahaha

ok.. now that I'm not so tired like yesterday night.. and sentosa is over.. I can type more bout yesterday..
we were having dinner and we had a big discussion bout branding different ethnic groups..
some thot that it is gross. while others, like me, think that it's no big deal.. and in fact necessary...

well, to me.. it's a fact that we'll different.. the differentiating the different races are only but a matter of fact.. no meaning tt I'm superior or that you should be whipped (not tt it's bad all the time ;p)
while the idea of we're human beings.. ALL.. is noble.. it's not workable..
like many things.. though our ideas are noble.. and so wonderful.. tt's not the solution.. so we're left here to think how messed up others are..
some truths we cannot run away.. some love is noble.. but who says that we can mix both of them together? :)

you say that I shld move on.. but how do I show u that I have..?
yes I like to miss you.. and I'm still waiting for our five years to come (baby.. 1 more to go.. )
and yes.. I want us to be noble.. and I keep saying that I want to grow up.. I want to be 29 one day..
but we all know that.. when I am 29, I will still be 11 years behind.. just like when I was 18..
this is the truth..

so how do I say we're all human afterall?
how do I tell you that love will save the day?


New Thing Now ~ Shawn Colvin
This is your new thing now
Naked as a rose
Everything exposed
But not quite

This is your new thing now
Cards out on the table
A genius with no label
But not quite, not quite

God, I swear it's good to be back home
Waiting for the newest Rolling Stone
All the other girls are still at war
The best and worst of 1994
Sometimes I see the half and not the whole
Sometimes I see the face and not the soul
Sometimes I think this place has no part
For anyone who ever had a heart

This is your new thing now
And it looks so good in print
Just a poet and her pimps
But not quite

This is your new thing now
A prom dress and a sneer
The woman of the year
But not quite, not quite

Gee, it's good to see a dream come true
People smile and bless all over you
Mixing up those latest junkie-isms
With all the pretty terms of religion

And don't you love the leader of the band
Equal parts Butthead and Peter Pan
All the other kids are sad again
A legend's not a legend 'til it ends

This is your new thing now
And it makes the whole world spin
It's as least as old as sin
But not quite

This is your new thing now
And now you're turning grinning
But maybe no one's listening
And you might lose it all my darling, yes you might

This is your new thing now
And it feels so good to doubt you
I could almost live without you
But not quite
not quite..
not quite..

today is THE day..
and like what yingkai said.. it's gonna disappoint me.. haha I know.. but I'm glad it's over.. at least it's over.. i know that I won't feel overly happy.. I know :)

hmm.. nothing to write today..

today's song is for someone..

for someone who is busy with her life
for someone who is busy with his life
for someone who has found a bf
for someone who is going to get married eventually
for someone who has found a job
for someone who's in Scotland
for someone who's in KL
for someone who's going to US
for someone who's in Aust
for someone who's in Shanghai
for someone who'll leave me
for someone i can't be with forever
for my childhood
for my teenage years
for those who have left me..


You're Gonna Make Me Lonesome When You Go ~ Bob Dylan
I've seen love go by my door
It's never been this close before
Never been so easy or so slow
Been shooting in the dark too long
When somethin's not right it's wrong
Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go

Dragon clouds so high above
I've only known careless love
It's always hit me from below
This time around it's more correct
Right on target, so direct
Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go

Purple clover, queen anne lace
Crimson hair across your face
You could make me cry if you don't know
Can't remember what i was thinkin' of
You might be spoilin' me too much, love,
Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go

Flowers on the hillside, bloomin' crazy
Crickets talkin' back and forth in rhyme
Blue river runnin' slow and lazy
I could stay with you forever
And never realize the time

Situations have ended sad
Relationships have all been bad
Mine've been like Verlaine and Rimbaud's
But there's no way i can compare
All those scenes to this affair
Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go

Yer gonna make me wonder what i'm doin'
Stayin' far behind without you
Yer gonna make me wonder what i'm sayin'
Yer gonna make me give myself a good talkin' to

I'll look for you in old Honolulu,
San francisco, Ashtabula,
Yer gonna have to leave me now, i know.
But i'll see you in the sky above,
In the tall grass, in the ones i love
Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go

Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go

Just came back from Sze's hse..
ah.. What can I say about Sze.. he's a wonderful guy.. so sweet to his gf.. haha

so Vicky... you better treasure him ah

It's like an exam-time practice for me to go over to his place before every major paper..
He teaches me wat I dont know..
Then I get to go out for a walk..
I get to talk to a person and I get to laugh
I get to eat the goodies at his house..
I get to eat the goodies auntie makes..
hee..
I like going to his hse


anyway, we like to chit chat..
to not think bout the problems..
so we were chatting bout our redang trip..

sze: u know where?
me: yeah
sze: s'pore casket there..
me: yeah.. i know where the terminal is lah..
sze: good.. we can go eat dinner there
me: .....


ah.. there's a market near Lavender MRT which is near casket too...
what was i thinking?
:)

Now I wonder what I want for love..
I always said money..
but I guess that's not it..
Coz years ago, I chose bus and hawker food over car and sushi bars..

I like women who doesn't give a damn about men.. damn.. these thoughts give me strange reactions.. hee

today is boring..

Peel Me A Grape ~ Diana Krall
Peel me a grape, crush me some ice
Skin me a peach, save the fuzz for my pillow
Talk to me nice, talk to me nice
You've got to wine and dine me

Don't try to fool me bejewel me
Either amuse me or lose me
I'm getting hungry, peel me a grape

Pop me a cork, french me a fry
Crack me a nut, bring a bowl full of bon-bons
Chill me some wine, keep standing by
Just entertain me, champagne me
Show me you love me, kid glove me
Best way to cheer me, cashmere me
I'm getting hungry, peel me grape

Here's how to be an agreeable chap
Love me and leave me in luxury's lap
Hop when I holler, skip when I snap
When I say, 'do it,' jump to it

Send out for scotch, call me a cab
Cut me a rose, make my tea with the petals
Just hang around, pick up the tab
Never out think me, just mink me
Polar bear rug me, don't bug me
New Thunderbird me, you heard me
I'm getting hungry, peel me a grape

the people who truly loves you.. no matter how much they irritate you, will always be there for you..

He may be the guy you will never love.. but loves you so much
She is your mother
He may be the friend you always say is your best friend.. but you never really did mean it..
He may be anyone..
if you have one.. i'm happy for you..

I guess everyone will have someone they fantasize about..
but I guess we fantasize coz that's all we can have..

another one more summer is coming