Friday, December 29, 2006
I Like You More Than You Think
However far apart you think we are
After all has been said and done
From halfway round the Earth
Though I cannot be where you are
How can someone like you love me the way you claim?
Who am I to be so lucky?
I'm too young
I'm too old
He don't seem to like me as much
I don't think we have much in common
Actually, the truth is
I like you more than you think
After all has been said and done
From halfway round the Earth
Though I cannot be where you are
How can someone like you love me the way you claim?
Who am I to be so lucky?
I'm too young
I'm too old
He don't seem to like me as much
I don't think we have much in common
Actually, the truth is
I like you more than you think
Labels: Gage'sWritings, Thoughts
Thursday, December 21, 2006
Better The Devil You Know
I have been thinking a bit these days.
Well, I have always been looking back and wondering all these years.
But more recently these days.
I wondered about what makes a love relationship.
Does love itself mean anything?
Does effort make it better?
If you put me in a less important place, when do I decide to pack up and know that love will not save the day afterall.
People often ask why I'm single.
I've often wanted to ask them, "With so much failed love affairs, why do you want me to be part of it?"
But of course you would hear me say, "The right one hasn't appeared yet."
An additional truth will be, "My fears."
I fear heartaches.
Not the pains and tears that I fear, but what a heartache will take away from me.
I look at people going in and out of relationships.
And I wonder if they are strong, or if they do not know what love is, or if they are plain silly, or if they are so lonely.
Love is a tricky thing isn't it?
And on my way to finding back my myself, I know I disappointed some people along the way.
I wish you all love and happiness.
And if you ever ask me, I'll say it's because I was scared.
I really do like you.
I see many relationships break down.
And those that are still together, are a little dysfunctional if you ask me (but I'm glad the two weirdos managed to find a happy home together).
But here's the challenge I gave myself: Other's failures do not lead to mine.
Maybe it's time to love.
It's good to love.
But when it's time to end, it should.
To anyone reading this,
maybe it's time to better the devil we know.
May it be to defeat him to start to love again, or to defeat it to let love die.
Well, I have always been looking back and wondering all these years.
But more recently these days.
I wondered about what makes a love relationship.
Does love itself mean anything?
Does effort make it better?
If you put me in a less important place, when do I decide to pack up and know that love will not save the day afterall.
People often ask why I'm single.
I've often wanted to ask them, "With so much failed love affairs, why do you want me to be part of it?"
But of course you would hear me say, "The right one hasn't appeared yet."
An additional truth will be, "My fears."
I fear heartaches.
Not the pains and tears that I fear, but what a heartache will take away from me.
I look at people going in and out of relationships.
And I wonder if they are strong, or if they do not know what love is, or if they are plain silly, or if they are so lonely.
Love is a tricky thing isn't it?
And on my way to finding back my myself, I know I disappointed some people along the way.
I wish you all love and happiness.
And if you ever ask me, I'll say it's because I was scared.
I really do like you.
I see many relationships break down.
And those that are still together, are a little dysfunctional if you ask me (but I'm glad the two weirdos managed to find a happy home together).
But here's the challenge I gave myself: Other's failures do not lead to mine.
Maybe it's time to love.
It's good to love.
But when it's time to end, it should.
To anyone reading this,
maybe it's time to better the devil we know.
May it be to defeat him to start to love again, or to defeat it to let love die.
Labels: Thoughts
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Because I Want You To Miss Me Too
Venus As A Boy: Bjork
his wicked sense of humour
suggests exciting sex
his fingers focus on her
touches, he's venus as a boy
he believes in beauty
he's venus as a boy
he's exploring
the taste of her
arousal
so accurate
he sets off
the beauty in het
he's venus as a boy
he believes in beauty
he's venus as a boy
his wicked sense of humour
suggests exciting sex
his fingers focus on her
touches, he's venus as a boy
he believes in beauty
he's venus as a boy
he's exploring
the taste of her
arousal
so accurate
he sets off
the beauty in het
he's venus as a boy
he believes in beauty
he's venus as a boy
Labels: Thoughts
Monday, December 18, 2006
Losing Can Be A Gain Afterall
It almost always happen to every love story.
Someone cheated.
Not the first time.
And the silly party has finally had enough.
I do hope no one gets offended by what I say here.
These are what I think about love.
I do not judge.
And I do not expect anyone to love the way that I do.
Someone asked me before.
Won't you ever get bored?
Surely, a little action on the side is fine.
I'm not sure if I can answer that fully.
I will tell you when I eventually settle down.
But even if I do get naughty,
I do protect my lover's feelings.
If not, it only shows that I do not love you just as much.
Someone once told me this
I do not shit where I eat.
Maybe we should all remember this dearly.
However urgent.
I often wonder if I will ever cheat.
To be honest, I've been single for too long.
Cheekiness doesn't come with too high a price.
But I do recall that I was quite very faithful, even with my raging hormones.
But maybe I've grown out of that fairytale frame of mind already.
Hurt or not, I hope this silly party will still have love.
I got lost before and I hope you will not be like me.
Because some things are just not worth it.
And you, my friend.
I think it's good for you.
To find someone who really really loves you is so precious.
I hope you will finally understand its value. (And I that you will be kinder to your next lover)
Losing someone you love can be painful.
But I think sometimes we gain much more when we lose something.
I hope the silly party learns from this that loving someone isn't allowing the other party to do anything and everything he/ she wants.
And I hope that the other party will finally learn how to love.
Someone cheated.
Not the first time.
And the silly party has finally had enough.
I do hope no one gets offended by what I say here.
These are what I think about love.
I do not judge.
And I do not expect anyone to love the way that I do.
Someone asked me before.
Won't you ever get bored?
Surely, a little action on the side is fine.
I'm not sure if I can answer that fully.
I will tell you when I eventually settle down.
But even if I do get naughty,
I do protect my lover's feelings.
If not, it only shows that I do not love you just as much.
Someone once told me this
I do not shit where I eat.
Maybe we should all remember this dearly.
However urgent.
I often wonder if I will ever cheat.
To be honest, I've been single for too long.
Cheekiness doesn't come with too high a price.
But I do recall that I was quite very faithful, even with my raging hormones.
But maybe I've grown out of that fairytale frame of mind already.
Hurt or not, I hope this silly party will still have love.
I got lost before and I hope you will not be like me.
Because some things are just not worth it.
And you, my friend.
I think it's good for you.
To find someone who really really loves you is so precious.
I hope you will finally understand its value. (And I that you will be kinder to your next lover)
Losing someone you love can be painful.
But I think sometimes we gain much more when we lose something.
I hope the silly party learns from this that loving someone isn't allowing the other party to do anything and everything he/ she wants.
And I hope that the other party will finally learn how to love.
Labels: Thoughts
Sunday, December 17, 2006
People Say I Look Different Everytime
KL Trip with army friends, November, 2001
2002
Food Court at Raffles City 2003
Redang, May, 2004
The longest my hair had ever grown, 2004
With Theresa, 2004
March, 2005
Photoshoot for Sports Camp, June, 2005
Peishan Graduating. With Xiushan, June, 2005
Tawfiq's Place, August, 2005
Bangkok Airport, October, 2005
Changmai, December, 2005
Filming location, March, 2006
With Jayna, May, 2006
July, 2006
November, 2006Saturday, December 09, 2006
夜色無邊演唱會 Sandy Lam World Tour 2006
It was quite crowded. Almost a full house. And I'm glad I was there.
I was quite prepared for a less than perfect Sandy that night.
Since her latest album is much too commercialised.
But when she started with <傾斜> , my all time favorite track, I had a feeling I will enjoy myself.
It's been a long time I find myself screaming and cheering in a concert.
I guess I really enjoyed the concert.
Sandy has too many hits to choose from but I'm glad that she has covered most of her classics.
The concert was really great. And if I get another chance, I will get the front row seat.
Hee.
As I listened to Sandy singing her songs, I thought about female singers like madonna. Their message is often "Never Go For Second Best".
But for females like Sandy, her approach is always "Love All that You Can, But If It Has To End, It Should".
I admire her strength.
女人独有的天真
和温柔的天分
要留给真爱你的人
不管未来多苦多难
有他陪你完成
虽然爱是种责任
给要给得完整
有时爱美在无法永恒
爱有多销魂
就有多伤人
你若勇敢爱了就要勇敢分
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Happy Family
I went for a cousin's wedding dinner today.
A cousin whom I don't even know exist.
A cousin who stared blankly when I congratulated her. Yes, she didn't even have the decency to pretend.
A cousin's wedding dinner which made my mother and sister quarreled.
(These two stupid women deserve their own entry space so I will not say much more now)
I greeted relatives I have never seen before.
He asked if I had done my Industrial Attachment already.
And by the way, his son went to Germany for his Industrial Attachment.
My uncle wants to pass his good contacts to my sister.
Yes. He wants her to join him.
Oh yeah, he's just one level below our MPs.
My uncle says we must have a family gathering soon!
If not, we will be strangers in no time.
His son doesn't know my sister's name.
My auntie zones into our table.
She talks to my grandmother's neighbour, not my mother.
Her husband pretends not to see us.
My mother insists to leave the wedding dinner last.
Because the bridegroom's relatives have yet to leave.
She does not want to lose face.
I am in a utterly bad mood now.
There is too much hypocrisy.
I do not like it.
A cousin whom I don't even know exist.
A cousin who stared blankly when I congratulated her. Yes, she didn't even have the decency to pretend.
A cousin's wedding dinner which made my mother and sister quarreled.
(These two stupid women deserve their own entry space so I will not say much more now)
I greeted relatives I have never seen before.
He asked if I had done my Industrial Attachment already.
And by the way, his son went to Germany for his Industrial Attachment.
My uncle wants to pass his good contacts to my sister.
Yes. He wants her to join him.
Oh yeah, he's just one level below our MPs.
My uncle says we must have a family gathering soon!
If not, we will be strangers in no time.
His son doesn't know my sister's name.
My auntie zones into our table.
She talks to my grandmother's neighbour, not my mother.
Her husband pretends not to see us.
My mother insists to leave the wedding dinner last.
Because the bridegroom's relatives have yet to leave.
She does not want to lose face.
I am in a utterly bad mood now.
There is too much hypocrisy.
I do not like it.
Labels: Thoughts
